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Floetry - Headache
...written on Sunday, Jan. 16, 2005, @ 11:24 PM
"You want out but you only want to keep me in" - Natalie.
Just when I thought that I have concealed my feelings for KT, I have discovered unfortunately that I was only lying to myself. I was just talking to Marlon on msn, and we kind of hit and missed on a few subjects in which resulted in me thinking about him again. I guess Marlon was right when he said that I¡¦m looking for answers that nobody is going to give me. I wouldn¡¦t mean normal if I didn¡¦t want to know these answers right? I mean, here I am willing to dedicate my whole heart to someone and they just out right tell me no and there isn¡¦t a reason behind it, at all? All I want at the end of the day is to be loved for who I am and to feel appreciated by feeling someone¡¦s dedication to me. I thought that being in love with someone and loving someone was always a good thing until today, I discovered that it¡¦s like a fungus; I disease nobody wants to have. Perhaps it¡¦s just me. Maybe I am not attractive enough to make someone feel the same way about me that I feel about them. Maybe I¡¦m just not worthy of having someone¡¦s heart. If I¡¦m not want you want, let me know honestly so maybe I wouldn¡¦t be living in some fairy tail about the whole ordeal. I just don¡¦t understand why it¡¦s so hard for me to find happiness with the one I am with. Is it me, or is it just him not knowing what he wants. ƒ¼
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