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My name is Alexis and I am a twenty one year old female originally from Gary, IN but I currenly live at Purdue Univeristy!! (Go Boilers!)
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Destiny's Child - Birthday
...written on Thursday, Dec. 30, 2004, @ 7:00 PM
Well, well, well... Today is KT's birthday and we weren't getting along today at all. In fact, we had kind of 'gotten into it' early this morning because he is so fucking ungrateful. I guess with age, nothing exactly really changes with people; accept age. Everyone is asking me what I am doing for the New Year, but I really don't know just yet. I think that I am going to pretty much stay low. I know with the serious of unfortunate events, I haven't really been in the "PARRRRTYING spirit" like most people are. I'm not interested in getting popped or anything like that, I just want to be at home in my bed SLEEP thanking God for yet another year that I am a live. Yes, I am grateful, because as we all have witnessed we are not promised to live from one moment to the next. I think it's so disheartening to see what has happened to all of those innocent people, especially with one third of them being children. However, I rather them die from Mother Nature and Father God than from some idiot doing a terrorist bombing and killing them for no damn reason, other than personal reasons which aren't justified through killing others. Tsunami was just God's work waiting to happen; you can't stop the good Lord from moving when he is ready to move. So anyways. How has your holiday's been? I've been doing very well contrary to popular belief. In the beginning, I had some childish foolishness going on between Tai (A.K.A. MZASHLEE on bp- I know shit too :-P) & Rodney but I am over the both of them, that shit is dead and I wish them the best of luck. I'm over and beyond the three way calling-that's shit I did at Tolleston, no wait... no it wasn't. That was Brace~Lederle. Whatever. I'm too old for that shit and life goes on. So! For the most part, like I said, my break has been wonderful and very much needed. For the most part, KT and I have been doing better than what I thought he would have been. You know how he can act. For Christmas, I bought him the CUUUUUTTTEST throwback letterman jacket that was priced at being $345.00.. :-} and it has a hood on it as well. So much for MY letterman jacket I was going to purchase. So anyhow... Many of you may think that I am arrogant, which has been something that has been on my mind a lot lately especially when it has come to me dealing with others. Don't have animosity with me because I think highly of myself. It's not what the fuck you think about me, it's all about how I think of myself. I-unlike a lot of you-value myself, and I consider myself to be worthy of a lot of things but being insecure is most definitely not one of my qualities that I have to offer anybody. In dispite of all of the cruel entries I have written about things done to me in my past, I still think a lot of myself and consider myself to be a pretty god damn strong individual if you truly ask me. Today, I really paid attention to Tupac's song, "Thugs get lonely too" and I thought about what I was told by my OLD friend Rodney. "A thug can be your lover and your friend, but he can never be your man because he'll be the first one to hurt you everytime. This is true. But! Everyone deserves a chance at being loved and having a chance to experience love for themselves. I don't consider myself to be afraid of no love. I've been willing and waiting paitently... OOOOOHHHH, so I haven't been able to tell you!! KT Finally has admitted to not wanting no girlfriend because he's insecure with himself. Basically. He thinks that I would hurt him and cheat on me, but I just don't think that he knows me that well if he think that I would cheat because I would never leave him without notice. I do have a little more respect for that bonehead. I'm getting so aggravated with his silly ass, I'm singing Fantasia! "If you don't want me, then don't talk to me!! Take your raggedy ass onto someone else." SHIT! I know that in the 2k5, I don't have time for all that jive. I'm looking for real shit, and if you're not on any real shit, then take your fake ass on someone else!
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