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My name is Alexis and I am a twenty one year old female originally from Gary, IN but I currenly live at Purdue Univeristy!! (Go Boilers!)
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Teendra Moses - Rescue Me!
...written on Friday, Dec. 10, 2004, @ 7:07 AM
My future guy, ... he doesn't have to be no gangsta, most definitely don't have to be a baller. He ain't gotta be an athlete, he ain't gotta be a CEO or anything like that. I guess you can say that what Ms. Raenita was saying is true that we as women within this society tends to 'settle' for things in a man's characteristics in which we might not necessarily agree with. For example: I am still in a somewhat VERY OPEN-OPEN (about as open as open can be) relationship with K.T. and even though I have knowledge of his dishonest ways I am still dealing with him, paitently. By me accepting him and all of his bags of bullshit, I have settled for who he is and I have allowed him to disrespect me through his dishonesty to me and his disloyalty for me. Even though I have attempted to work diligently to prepare myself to abandon him on several attempts, I have still found myself on the phone talking to him for hours on end. I find this to be utterly ridiculous beyond reasonable doubt. I want it all to end, immediately. I want it to end because I am tired of being bluntly lied to, cheated on, and whatever else he can possibly do to me. I still don't know for sure the status of this second child being his, although my woman's intuition says it is, and I still don't know exactly where his heart is in ters of me and it's really beginning to make me angry because today he can say one thing, and tomorrow he can say another and then next week he would declare that I can't believe a damn thing that he says because sometimes he just be talking and doesn't mean what he says. I know what he means though. By him being continously undecisive says to me that he's not ready for me and what I have to offer him, therefore, he will/would just try to get the milk for free without buying the whole damn cow. But I will no longer endure this foolishness in fact, I have washed my hands of the matter; which is why I am no longer sexually active with him. I cannot continue to be with a man that continues to be with everyone else; I do NOT share. Sharing is for sibblings as well as other individuals who HAVE to share. I am the Beautiful & Illustrious Alexis and I don't have to deal with that shit. Everywhere I go, I attract attention to my raw intellectual and fasinatingly overwherming beauty. Let me remind you, I am a twenty year old college students without any children. My future is so bright that it sometimes hurts my eyes, so I don't need you to be anything that my heart desires. I choose to be with you because I at one point in time wanted to be with you. I sought you to be a wonderful individual whom I thought could bring a lot to the table to offer me, but now that I see that I was dead ass wrong, I think I just might pass up the opportunity of a lifetime. Now, I just want a man who is responsible, I prefer that he doesn't have any children. Even if I could have a man like Jay-Z or someone like that I would be elated, and I would most definitely praise God. I know Beyonce` is blessed, and spoiled... If I had what she had... I too would be crazy in love!!
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