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112 - Cupid
...written on Tuesday, Nov. 23, 2004, @ 12:14 AM
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KT said, that shit aint true but it is
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capricorn - SAYS IT ALL
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
she told me that she finally realized how special i am to her, but she wont tell me howm that shyt is dumb as shyt
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
shes like a lil azz kid
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
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could be "game"
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December 22 to January 20
Traditional
Capricorn Traits
Practical and prudent
Ambitious and disciplined
Patient and careful
Humorous and reserved
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
meaning:?
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ambigious is definitely KT
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Capricorn! About Your Sign...
Capricorn is one of the most stable and (mostly) serious of the zodiacal types. These independent, rocklike characters have many sterling qualities. They are normally confident, strong willed and calm. These hardworking, unemotional, shrewd, practical, responsible, persevering, and cautious to the extreme persons, are capable of persisting for as long as is necessary
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
lol...i dunno man, but thats prolly y we aint together now
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i asked her that b4
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lol
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but i guess my own question
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ares & leo's aren't made for eachother
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b/c you both try to lead and dominate and it's not going to work
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trust me
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ARIES
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odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
what bout pisces?
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hol on
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i'm still reading capricorn
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http://www.astrology-online.com/
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
aight
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
oh i know, my gyrl told me b4
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thats prolly y i cant say shyt so her ass
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
lol...ya'll so sensitive
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lol
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The Fishes
Febuary 20 to March 20
Traditional
Pisces Traits
Imaginative and sensitive
Compassionate and kind
Selfless and unworldly
Intuitive and sympathetic
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On the dark side....
Escapist and idealistic
Secretive and vague
Weak-willed and easily led
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Pisces,
Pisceans possess a gentle, patient, malleable nature. They have many generous qualities and are friendly, good natured, kind and compassionate, sensitive to the feelings of those around them, and respond with the utmost sympathy and tact to any suffering they encounter. They are deservedly popular with all kinds of people, partly because their easygoing, affectionate, submissive natures of
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They are never egotistical in their personal relationships and give more than they ask from their friends. They are sexually delicate, in the extreme almost asexual, and most Pisceans would want a relationship in which the partner's mind and spirit rather than the body resonated with their own. Unfortunately they can be easily misled by a lover who courts them delicately and in marriage makes them
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LIKES
Solitude to dream in
Mystery in all its guises
Anything discarded to stay discarded
The ridiculous
like to get 'lost'
DISLIKES
the obvious
being criticized
feeling all at sea about something
know-it-alls
pedantry
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BACK TO CAPRICORN'
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The swings in mood are not the only reason some Capricornians deserve the adjective based on their name - capricious. They can be surprisingly and suddenly witty and subtle for the quiet, reserved individuals they seem to be, and they also have a tendency to ruin things by unexpected and utterly irresponsible bouts of flippancy. In certain individuals in whom the characteristic is strong, the temp
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
well it do sound like both
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the temptation to do this has to be resisted with iron self-control. Another unexpected quality in some Capricornians is an interest in the occult which persists in spite of their naturally skeptical turn of mind.
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i already know the aries
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I'm talking about capricorn now
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
we are mean
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but can b sometimes
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but no gemini
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odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
(2 faced)
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Pisces and Capricorn
On their first meeting Capricorns see Pisceans as someone who is romantic and emotional, something they find hard to understand but at the same time extremely alluring. Pisceans see Capricorns as calm and secure, someone to admire for living in the real world. Both signs have a passionate nature so there may be tremendous sexual attraction between them. The Piscean will see th
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THIS IS SOOOOOO TRUE
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Read this
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this (i think) was what he was talking about
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To Capricorns sex shows commitment and something not to be entered into lightly. To Pisceans sex is an emotional expression involving body, mind and soul. Capricorns are not very good at showing their emotions and Pisceans need emotional support above everything. This can cause obvious problems.
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what do you think about that?
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
uh oh
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
well, it means that w/o intimacy, the relationship seize to co-exist
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thats prolly y he want 2 c u alot
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huh
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i'm confused?
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tell me what you meant?
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
Capricorns are not very good at showing their emotions and Pisceans need emotional support above everything.
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
he only can show emotions thru intimacy
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that's the obvious
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(he shows no emotion)
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but u dont have to have that to feel the way u do
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
u cannot live w/o feelin
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
so what u mean
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
(no emotions)
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and see, that's what's pissin me off, because I keep on asking him... what's the deal between us, what's up... "I'll get back to you" he acts like he's so apathetic, and then in the next breathe, he'll try to express the fact that he cares and I don't EVER want to believe him
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Pisces & CAPRICORN: This is not a bad combo in general however, you will probably run around on the Goat due to loneliness. You are also too wasteful for the Capricorn to deal with.
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CAPRICORN AND PISCES
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Capricorn provides a ballast for Pisces's drifting dreaminess and supplies the stability that Pisces needs and admires. And there's nothing Capricorn likes better than being admired. Capricorn is the boudoir captain, but Pisces is a willing crew. Pisces's taste for the bizarre may even influence Capricorn's conventional passions. Pisces's generous affections and Capricorn's strong sense of loyalty
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combine to make each feel safe and protected. These very different people meet each other's needs.
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Capricorn can be difficult in human affairs. He means well but does not like to make an exhibition of his feelings. He is steady, a good and able provider, but not very romantic and sentimental. I would say that he is the non-nonsense type. As a sexual partner he can be regressive in bits and patches. Too many womanly demands for attention should be made on him, specially when he is hard at work.
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SO
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what do you think I should do?
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because I know I got feelings for somebody who may not even feel the same way about me
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Likewise, Capricorn in the presence of this water sign often feels like he is completely enveloped , as if back in the womb. They are as cuddly and cute as two teddy bears.
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Capricorn, remember not to be too harsh or rigid with your dreamy fish, for he/she is easily hurt. Treat a Pisces lovingly and kind and they will always be loyal.
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HELLo
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odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yeah, lemme read
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A sympathetic and understanding mate will Capricorn find in Pisces, and the steady going temperament of Capricorn is just what Pisces needs for a sense of confidence and security. Sexual needs and social goals are compatible and very similar. One of the things that Pisces will admire about Capricorn is his very practical ways. With Capricorn learning that Pisces` dependence grows more with the yea
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years , this will fulfill Capricorn`s desire to be needed. This combination seems to work very well.
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So
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I'm guessing that everybody says we are meant to be: Pisces & Capricorn
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But right now, i'm frustrated because I feel so "unwanted" and I know that to me, this is not going to work. I mean, shit, you have to show me something.
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
well, do what u feel is in ur heart
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i'm sick of people telling me that
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
the zodiac signs can b true
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but u only know the person
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
they r just generalizing folks
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tru
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
so u have to depict what u know is true
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well, i know he's emotionalist
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ok
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
what else
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I mean, when I left. I was hurt that i had to leave
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i was sniffing my scarf & pj's because they smelled just like him (weed LOL)
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
lol...thats funny
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and it was cool to me, like i could picture myself sitting around the house with him all day watching TV and doing hw
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and i was like this is what it would be like if we lived together... Daydreaming
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that was the KT that i like, not the trippin' kt that i encountered at times this summer
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but sometimes, when i am around him, i don't feel too 'fine' around him.. he's always talking about how he likes skinny girls and this or that girl is fine and i'm always like, well go fuck her then! shit
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
lol...thats just how relationship b sometimes
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
u aint been in a real one, so now u know
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
there b ups and downs
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
and nugs that care bout their gyrl, and consider them friends still, just talk like that
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
he prolly just comfortable round them
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
and lexis, ur skinny..so he like u 2
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
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no i am not
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i mean u
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hol on, i'm confused
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what you mean by we be friends and ....
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i dont get it
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
well...thats what he consider ya'll still rite
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
and he feels comfortable bout talkin to u bout w/e
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i wouldnt b offended by that
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he like we friends but we are more than that?
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i am offended shit
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
well u cant b too offended
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
and y would u
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then, he'll say, nah but i like you cause i like to grab on to something
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i dunno man, maybe cuz i'm a nug
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
maybe he dunno what he wants
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i mean, i'm already self conscious, like he wanted to get "naked" and i was like nooo, i'm getting fat and he's like man, why you letting yourself go
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
maybe he prefers skinny chicks...but he like u quote on quote "thick"
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i dunno, i just feel like i should just sit in the corner somewhere and just put a bag over my head sometimes
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
lol...w/e u not fat, and u know u got it like that...thats y u get all them compliments
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but ur stomach is kinda chubby
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lol
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but u a college student, that just comes wit the territory
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I just don't know
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i mean, if everytime I could be with him was like Wednesday & Thursday then, shid, I'd be floating on top of the world. That would impress me, I like that chill time with my nigga, and I don't have to be 'spoiled' but the reality is, is that when i'm back in his reach, it seems like he act like he doesn't appreciate it.
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that's my biggest problem with him: he says he cares, but i feel so underappreciated
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accept
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hellllllo
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accept
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odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
mud facez
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
whudupdoe
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dont make us laugh
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you didn't answer my
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comment up there ^^^
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hello
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i understand how u feel trust me
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i dunno man
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me either, so i ask so i'll know and all i'll get is "I'll get back with you on that" and I'm like WTF? you can tell me a yes, no, i can't explain it something
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yeah, well lemme tell u this
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
if he doesnt evenutally give a answer...give him a oltimatium or however it is spelled:
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
either lemme know how u truly feel bout me (w/o intimacy) or i need to move on with my life
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
make it seem like its vital that he tells u how he feels
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i been doing that
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
nugs hate anythin that is competition
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i told him a while ago
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thats the problem...u need to do that for real
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where i was...
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
NO INTIMACY
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but i like it too
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odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
if it is tru, that a capricorn only can display emotion thru intimacy...u need to break that chain, if there is none...then he cannot hide feelings behind intimacy
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
u said u aint even CUM...please
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
u like it b/c u like to give him pleasure
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thats all
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i was talkin about last time because i wanted to know
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i had shit on my head
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I really want to know what's good, i mean, it's hurting me not to know.
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I feel like I do deserve some type of answer and not receiving one makes me feel like he doesn't care, and if I say he doesn't, he never answers me
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thats what i mean, who wants to feel content only on wednesday and friday...that shyt is bogus
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just like when i left...
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i mean K on Tent
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
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he didn't even give me a hug or anything
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when i left on the 2nd... he just leaned towards me and put his head by my shoulder but that was that
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i want to hug him, i really wanted to cry because i had to leave h im
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
well, i think its like this:
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i was thinking in deep through my whole drive back
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and jaton was sleep and it was raining and i was just in my train of thought
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
he likes u alot, but it might be "something" holding him back...or "someone"
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
b/c i use to do Tai like that...i aint gonna lie
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odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i'm not sure, but it just sounds like it
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
he only coo sometimes
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
and the weekend, he back leaving, comin back hrs later??
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which could be why his mama started flipping huh?
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
true
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no, he didn't do anything
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
she prolly dont want her son to be a HOE
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
nah u said u stayed from wed-fri
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we were together the whole time i was there
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
what bout sat-sun
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No.
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I was there Wed - late thursday
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i got there wednesday night and i left late thursday night
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it was early - early friday morning when i got back to school
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
oooooh...well THINK lexis
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about what?
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i said, shyt only coo during the week...u told me he b actin funny on the weekends u come to c him
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
the weekends is hangout...chill out time
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
so whats good wit that
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he ain't be acting funny since i left for school
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that was when i was in Gary
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but now, when I come... he be there
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i think ur in denial sweets
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no
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i guess ma'
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
all i can tell u is what i think
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
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i am just tired of waiting
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i wrote him a letter, and he read it while i was there. he said he was glad he read the letter but i couldn't remember what i said
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but it doesnt matter...u will b by his side,and nuthin is wrong wit that (LOVE,LIVE, LIFE)
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but that's the point!!
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i don't want to be just by nobody's side
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waiting
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i don't have to wait
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
well, u have already said u will by being naive
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
and passive
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how is that
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thru this whole ordeal
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
passive: by knowing how u feel, and not knowing how he truly feels
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
naive:
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
b/c u know that he is avoiding alot of important things that need to be answered, but u r sad bout it, want help, then just do the same shyt
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
its like an emotional cycle u have allowed urself to go thru
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
the only person who isnt K on Tent is urself
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
HI Kai baby
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
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I'm starting to be like Destiny's Child "Through w/ love" because this is getting frustrating to me.
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I figure that if I don't ask him then he would eventually tell me but obviously he won't... and I'm just tired of not feeling my best when this is what i want them to get from m
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me*
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
w/e u are just a hopeless romantic, but u crave that mutual feeling, and if ur sign describes urself, then u will never give up
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
and thats nuthin u can help
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i shouldn't but i need to
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i'm tired of having my feelings hurt and heart broken
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yeah, but i know u for 2yrs...u will not
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
its become part of u, like a quest for Mr. Right, and lemme put this on the record...a thug can b a good lover, a good friend, but never ur man
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
we obligated to the streets, b/c thats all we know, dont live with rules, law or love (i mean outta the relationship status)....its hard to love and understand a tru thug
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
especially when u never felt tru love, its hard to depict good pussy from real love
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
sometimes u think its the same thing, thats got u so gone
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
and when u hear the word "love" actually being said 2 u...it takes u back like, damn..."am i suppose to be all loyal, and committed to her"
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
when i already committed myself to the streetz
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
(my number one teacher)
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
(first love)
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
etc
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but the difference is...
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You grow up
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The streets die along with all the people who used to run them with you
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then what will you have when you've neglected everybody outside of those streets?
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nobody
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
nah, its bout principles tho
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
u love and respect the streetz b/c u learn from all the good and bad
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
u grow up, become a man, either fight this whyte man's war or u become involved in corporate america...the other percentage...just remain LOYAL to their first love...its hard to understand shorty
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No, and I'm sick of this white man's shit of an excuse
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you do have people like me, who will accept you for who you are and love you unconditionally
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you should take that and cherish it
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not dog me out
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and treat me like shi
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shit*
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because life wasn't always so kind to you
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Life ain't kind to me either
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but when you have someone willing to hold you down, to help you get through those times, then you should be happy somebody would want you with or WITHOUT all of your flaws
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that's real love
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not no bullshit fake ass love
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every night, I go to bed, worried sick about kt
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cause i know he got some looney tune nigga shooting at him
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and all i can do is pray that he'll be alright until tomorrow
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he don't have to live like that
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he choose to live like that
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and get mad and make excuses
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as to why he ain't successful in life
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yeah, but once u r in, theres really no way out...unless u tryin to make shyt happen (like myslef) but some nugs r attracted to that kinda life ( i know i got a shorty on the way) (possibly a boi) so i want him to learn from me, lemme b his number one teacher...b/c he has that advantage...but KT is just content
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
and u being his woman, u have to respect his loyalty
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and what about his loyalty to me?
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
(first love status)
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I sacrifice a lot formy loyalty to him? WTf
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
maybe he is tryin to protect u lexis
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
maybe he doesnt want to become too involved ..given the lifestyle he leads
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
to protect u
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well then if he wanted to protect me, he should have never got involved with me, point blank
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
well, its not like that tho
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
u prolly was just good pussy at the time
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
now he got feelings for u, and is confused
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i'm not talking about before sex, i'm talking about the day he started chillin wit me, etc
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
well...u act like ya'll go together
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i mean ya'll knew eachother rite
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
u r coo wit lots of folks
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thats what it was
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
unless he was tryin to make u his woman
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but obviously not...rite
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i dunno
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that's where he keeps saying "I was just trying to be yo 'friend'" but what a "friend" is... i still don't know but it's not what a "friend" would be to you and i
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i know
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thats y i said i use to do Tai like that
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so i should just let it be a wrap?
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I don't want to let time go bye... and be miserable with all of the what ifs
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
look lexis....hes grown, and his loyalty is not a phase
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
he already told u what he wants
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
read inbetween the lines
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
ya'll friends wit benefits
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i would strap up from now on
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oh
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
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that's one thing that i see men will never grow out of
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
what?
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i dunno, i'm just tired of being played with and i'm not a toy
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i didn't even ask for this shit
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if i wanted to be in a yo-yo affect... i would just fuck myself and go with the ups and downs of that
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
hello?
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
r u okay, where u go?
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) is inviting you to start sending webcam. Do you want to Accept (Alt+C) or Decline (Alt+D) the invitation?
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i'm here
You have accepted the invitation to start sending webcam.
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
so what did u mean? (grow outta what)
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nothing
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i guess. u mad that statement bout nugs in general
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no
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but "nothing"
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i'm just tired of being played with
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but this one i have to speak up for dude
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
he did tell u
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but u want more, and he cares for u enough to not hurt ur feelins by tellin u again
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but he does need to be honest
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i agree wit u
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if i wanted to be in a yo-yo affect... i would just fuck myself...
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i asked him thaen
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andhe never answered me
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
lmao...lexis he told u sweets
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
cuz u told me
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i know only what u tell me
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I asked him in the beginning "what does that mean to be someones 'friend' to you" cause if that's the case, dewayne and i were friends too but it was much more than that. but needless to say.... i'm tired of it
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i will not endure it anymore
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
u always say this ma'....u even told me u was going to stop talkin to him (PERIOD)..but u crave to hear what u wanna hear from him...he tell u he miss u
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
and u all over him again
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
A fucked up cycle
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i dont ask him to lie to me, just be real
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but, he tells u what u wanna hear
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i dont ask hiim
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thats just simple as that
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he just say... i miss you
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blah
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but he knows
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
he prolly do tho, but i'm talkin bout what u have control over
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
how bout this....ask him what does he miss bout u...(if anythin includes intimacy) then thats what he truly miss
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
b/c thats all he truly knows
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how do you figure that
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
b/c thats what u tell me...he needs to c u first, to tell u how he feels...lmao (duh lexis)
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no
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that is not what i said
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i mean u told me that once
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i know not now
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
this is when u said he called u out the blue
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what i said was, that he said, "I'll get back with you later, is that cool with you? Because I don't want to say the wrong thing"
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
after u wrote him
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he always asks me when i am coming home
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but if u feel a certain way, then u wouldnt have to think twice bout how u need to say it
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
it would just come natural
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B/c this summer, when we were both intoxicated, he told me that he knew he was going to miss me because he had gotten attached to me
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
that nug sends u mix messages, and got u like a spin cycle
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thats real
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
when hes good, then EVERYTHING is good
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
but what bout u
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what is the question?
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
there is no...is just a statement
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
c no at the end
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.ok
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i just want u to think bout it....stop thinkin wit ur emotions...think like a nug
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
u've been around them most of ur life
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
it should come natural
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but it doesnt
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yes it does, u r lettin the emotional part speak for u
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
u gotta just think like a cold-hearted individual, that doesnt know love, just life on a day-day basis
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but i dont know how to
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that is not who i am rodney
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i'm sorry
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i wish it were that easy
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
i know its not, but think bout how he feels, when u want him to b "emotional" and its not him
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
same thing
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i am not asking for him to be
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
YES U R
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
he doesnt know how to express emotion rite
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i'm just asking for him to tell me or let me know, so i don't feel like his rag doll
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"@
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odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
except from intimacy...we argee on that much
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yes
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
well, thats hard for him, just like being nonchalant is for u
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I guess
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all i know is that, my heart is throroughly broken into a million and a half pieces and unfortunately...
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those are the pieces of me
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
so what u think u need to do, continue to b his counselor/lover or put ur pieces back 2gether by working on gettin the fuck outta school, so u can move on in life to more benefical things
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i dont know
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nothing ever works out for me when i plan so fuck it
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
where r ur priorites
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i live day to day
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
w/e thats BS
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
just like u said the thug mentality is BS
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
stop making excuses
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
u r lucky to b even in school
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
u know how many peeps lost their lives so we could do the shyt we do
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
u gotta get ur priorites str8
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they are straight for me
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i dont give a shit less about beign in shcool
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besides, i'm failing anyways
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i'd do better working at the post office and saving money
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
thats so sad, u werent always that way
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
u might as well, go flip burgers and give ur moms back her money (refundable)
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you're right
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
yup...do ya thang
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but i'm just wasting it
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
as long as ur doing somethin
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
maybe u should go to a tech school
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
get into somethin that u like to do
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i'm not even registered for school
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next semester
odogg201@aol.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says:
that u were blessed wit (a talent, make real money...not just lunch money)
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I never have any money so if it is lunch money, it' s more money than just lunch money
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I guess, I can't be too disappointed at the while my life has turned out. my daddy first broke my heart, and so did dewayne, and now this.
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it's just best to love myself and say fuck the world
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